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I haven’t been blogging a lot lately, in case you haven’t noticed.  It’s not that I don’t have anything to say, but because I don’t know how to say it.  I have no problem talking about stuff when I’m happy; that’s when I want the whole world to know.  But when I’m not happy, I have a tendency to stuff it all inside and hope it will all go away.

So, where shall I start?  How about - the economy!  News has it that the economy is in the crapper right now.  I scan the headlines about how this company and that company is laying off people left and right or just closing its doors completely.  Take shopping, for example.  Already there have been lots of stores that have closed.  Even supermarkets!  Grocery stores are typically recession-proof because everyone has to eat.  Well, people are playing the coupon game like crazy and trying to figure out how they can eat for as little as possible.  I get that people aren’t spending money because they no longer have much of it anymore, but this is freaky.  Pretty soon I won’t have anywhere to go to buy a box of tissues.

The housing market is just downright depressing.  Sure, if you have money you might be able to buy a house for a great deal.  But Mister and I bought a year ago.  Prices were starting to come down a bit, but no one really thought the economy would collapse the way it did.  We have a conventional mortgage and were able to get financing that doesn’t exist anymore.  But we’re so upside down today.  I made the mistake of looking at the builder’s website to see what the units they have available are selling for today.  I won’t give you the grisly details.  I shouldn’t have looked myself, because it’s got my mind reeling with fears and worries now. 

The job market.  With jobs being lost left and right, it’s worrying.  I live in Vegas, which is pretty much a single-market town.  Like Detroit was.  And I work in the gaming industry.  There has been a bit of “reconstructive” downsizing at my company, but we’re still relatively strong (relative to the competition).  My job is pretty stable, since my department is necessary but now down to as few people as it can really operate with.  But Mister is unemployed at the moment.  And his unemployment actually has nothing to do with the economy.  That’s the Drama that I referred to a few posts back.  His dilemma now is that everything he knows how to do he is no longer physically able to do.  So we’re both trying to figure out what he can do, what he wants to do and what direction to take it all in.  For now we are ok, financially, but it won’t last forever.

Those are the main worries going on in my mind right now.  Let’s talk about the fears.  I fear that Mister won’t be able to find something else to do (especially in this town) and worry about where that will land us.  I read headlines about gun sales being up, and I fear that we’re going to become a lawless society because of the economy.  Overall, I fear that this year - 2009 - will get much worse.  Not just for the country, because everyone is predicting that, but for me personally, and in an tragically epic sort of way.  I can’t seem to shake that feeling.

So that’s why I haven’t been blogging much lately.  I try to stay upbeat on the blog, but I haven’t been upbeat lately.  I don’t want this to become a complaining blog, because I’ll lose readers much faster than if I don’t write anything at all.  That’s about it.  I’ll try to write when I can, and I’ll try to keep the mood balanced.  All I can do is try.

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