KirstenL4W

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Ok, not the most scientific of tests, but it’s not way off base either. I took this based on Gem’s recommendation.Valentine’s Day was uneventful for me. I had 2 job interviews, one of which looks fairly promising, then I headed to work at security firm. I was supposed to be catching up on payroll stuff, but ended up doing dispatch pretty much all night. T-Bone just can’t seem to multi-task well, so when it comes to multiple phone calls, or the phone and radio at the same time, he can’t handle it. My need to make sure the job gets done means that I just start picking up the phone and the radio when I’m there and taking over. Anyway, T-Bone ended up having a family situation which necessitated his leaving, so I became the one and only dispatcher for the rest of the night, which put me even further behind on payroll. But I was able to get caught up on it tonite, which is good. Tomorrow I’ll finish out the week so I won’t have to go in at all during the weekend. I’m really starting to hate that work is all I ever do, and let me tell you how much working evenings sucks. I feel so isolated from my friends and the rest of my life. I absolutely have to get back to a regular day schedule. I’m much happier that way.

Getting back to Valentine’s Day. I’ve had years when I’ve had a Valentine, and let me tell you, every time I’ve had a special someone on that day it’s been a disappointment. Not that not having someone is everything that I’d hoped it would be, but at least there’s no getting my hopes up. If I did have someone, I would hope that he wouldn’t need a holiday like this one to up the romance factor. My favorite romantic moments have been quiet, impromptu, casual moments - like the time when a fairly new beau called me one morning as I was getting ready for work to tell me that he loved me. Let me tell you, that had me floating on Cloud 9 so much more so than a generic box of candy, the obligatory bouquet of red roses and sappy card would on February 14th. Moments like that make me want to bend over backwards to do everything I can think of and more to want to make my beloved feel, well, loved. Loved and happy and well cared for.

On years when I don’t have a special someone to celebrate contrived holidays like the one that just passed, I’m glad I have a black hole of a workplace to go to so that I can forget that there is no one to be on the receiving end of all the love and affection I have to give. Do you remember that famous line from the movie Jerry Maguire? “You complete me.” I love it when I can have someone in my life who can make it seem like my whole life exists for his happiness. I’ve found so far in my relationships that I’m happiest when I am able to make my partner happy, because let’s face it, you get what you give.

Anyway it’s late, or early, depending on how you look at it. The sun is coming up and I should get to bed.

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