Well tapering down the Paxil on my own isn’t the way to go. I started getting the zaps and could not concentrate at all, so I’m back to my regular prescribed dosage. But I did make a doctors appt for next week to try and get off this stuff. I just don’t want to be on it anymore, and I really think it’s dulling things down for me. I mean, really, who on earth could be content to just work 2 jobs and go home alone every single night, perfectly content to have absolutely no social life? I was for a long time on it. I don’t want to do that. I want to feel things and seek out new things and experience them. Grrrr. I didn’t even want Paxil in the first place. I wanted something else because I new getting off it would be a bitch. Now I know I should never have gone on it. Sure, I was having a hard time with stuff last year, and could barely think about facing my day or even going to the damn store without breaking out in tears. I’ve gone through it before, and I always got through it on my own before. I don’t know why I thought this was any different. Now I feel stuck on it, and we all know how I feel about being stuck.
The Man’s friend passed my resume on today, and is picking up the head of HR from the airport tomorrow. She said she’s gonna put a bug in my ear about hiring me, and she is personally recommending me, which goes a long way where she works. It goes a long way in this town in general. Back home my family knows a lot of people, and even in the hardest of times I have never had to use that to get a job – I always managed just fine on my own. Here, though, it’s a totally different ballgame. It’s all about who you know, and if you don’t know anyone, the job hunt in Vegas will be 10x tougher, no matter what industry you’re in. I’m still working all my contacts and trying not to leave any stone unturned.
I’ve been thinking of switching over to Beta. The only thing is that I would love to edit the code on my beautiful template to make it Beta compliant, so that I can take advantage of some of the upgrades, like labels and easy editing with widgets. I’ve also been thinking of simplifying some of the content on my sidebar. I’m no longer thrilled to have tons of toys on it for the sake of having them. So, as my motivation comes and goes, look for some changes. I don’t know when D-Day is as far as Blogger making everyone change to Beta, but hopefully I’ll have it all figured out by then. Just gotta find the motivation and time to work on it – I haven’t really felt like playing too much with code lately.
i totally reccommend beta. and, maybe it’ll fix the few issues that pop up when visiting your site…for example..trying to comment.
beta is great, it’s much easier, and changing anything on your sidebar is a breeze.
do it!
-macoosh:)
Like your idea of testing Beta first. Of course I didn’t think of that and I just dove right in!
Sorry about the meds issue. Even if the social life is currently limited, at least there is blogging. :)