KirstenL4W

There are just so many changes going on in my life right now. I am actively looking for a new job. I had an interview today, and I think it went fairly well. It’s a government job, and the agency that it’s for is one that I have a bit of inside knowledge about through my current job, so hopefully that will give me a major edge over other candidates even though I have some doubts due to some of the questions I was asked today. Experience doing presentations? Experience with Access? Unfortunately, I have not yet had the opportunity to do that in my work so far. But, I am a quick study and eager to learn. Keep your fingers crossed for this one, because I really want it. It’s a significant amount of money more than I make now, but it’s also a secure career path with many opportunities for advancement.

My co-workers were interviewing people for my replacement today. It’s rather awkward. I mean, I know I’m leaving and they all say they don’t want to see me go, but I’m feeling really left out of everything. Even something simple like lunch plans. Hey, what are you doing for lunch today? We’re going to This Place, do you want anything? No, I’m rarely asked. Even if I never need anything or want/can go, I’d still like to be asked. Those sorts of things bother me more when I’m having low self esteem moments.

I’m having some self doubts about other areas of my life, but rather than wallow in them I’m just pushing forward. The days of me coming home to an empty apartment need to end. Remote Control, I love you but you can’t rule my life anymore. The Man has been out of contact today. Not sure what to make of it. Not sure if I should make anything of it. I mean, I’ve only known him a week. It’s been an incredible week, but I don’t know. I know he had a bad day yesterday. Is he taking a day off today? I’d like to know, but after Mr. Piercing Blue Eyes, I don’t have the patience for that kind of moodiness and non-communication. Mr. PBE’s brother once told me that PBE is worse than a woman with bad pms. I’m sorry, but as a woman who gets pms, I can’t deal with it in a man. But as far as The Man goes, if there’s anything else, then I’d just like to know. Tell me with something other than silence. Just tell me. I’d rather just hear it straight out than sit and wonder, and have the lengthening silence slowly bring me to my senses.

I feel big changes coming in my life, and not just with my job. I just feel a huge shake-up going on all over. My mom is moving to a town I had trouble finding on a map. Now when she talks of home I’ll only have the vaguest of ideas. My job is changing, and I’m feeling an insatiable need to change my social situation. Too much all at once and my brain is going beserk. Lots of incoherent thinking going on, lots to write about, lots to get out.

I haven’t eaten since 10:30am, and I’m famished. Time to cook dinner and relax a bit. Perhaps I’ll get some sleep tonite too. Been getting far too little of that lately.

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