KirstenL4W

It was ridiculously slow at the store today. So, I left an hour early and wandered the mall for a bit. I went into our sister shoestore and chatted up the manager there for a bit, and while I was at it I actually found 2 pairs of comfy shoes that fit. Since I can also take advantage of my employee discount at Sister Shoe Store, I did just that and got the 2 pairs for $30 and change. They are sandals, but since summer here in Vegas lasts about 6 months, I’ll get quite a lot of use out of them.

I never got out to see that movie yesterday, but I’ll try this week. The movie I was wanting to see is Little Miss Sunshine, and since Macoosh and I seem to be long lost twins and she loved it, I’m sure I will too. I’m only working 2 nights this week, which will be a refreshing change of pace. I don’t even remember what it feels like to just go straight home from the office!

I totally skipped church this morning. I had absolutely no willpower to get my ass out of bed, and as a result didn’t get up until noon. That has so got to stop, because the days are getting shorter and I’m much worse at getting up in the winter than in the summer, since it’s dark then when my alarm goes off. I wish there was some sort of willpower pill to take, because I seriously have none.

Now that I’m back from my vacation, I have lots to do to keep up with my life and also to reach my goals, now that I know what they are. I’ve known since the minute I landed here in Vegas that it wouldn’t be forever, and I’m really feeling like my time here is coming to an end (which would be sometime next spring or summer, when my lease is up). My next move I haven’t been so clear on, but I knew I wanted to move someplace greener, someplace friendlier, someplace with seasons (trust me, clear and sunny gets boring after awhile), something with an atmosphere a bit closer to what I’m familiar with. But while my exact destination isn’t really clear, I do know that I do NOT want to move back in the same vicinity of my family, back to my old stomping grounds. It’s nice to visit, but again there’s the drama in my family and the whole issue of not being able to take a shit without everyone in my extended family finding out about it. I still need my own space. I did email an e-friend regarding some thoughts I had on it because she did a similar move in her life, and basically she her thoughts and words gave life and direction to the arbitrary thoughts I have been having. I’m not ready to say here what all those thoughts are and what direction I’m heading in, mainly because I don’t want to feel too much pressure about it. I’d like it to still feel like my descision, and I’d like it continue to work it out for myself to make sure that it’s what I really want. But it’s there, and honestly I do think it is what I really want, but with so much time between now and when my lease is up, I need to know for sure and know that nothing will sidetrack me between now and then.

Ok, that was really cryptic except to one person (hi Courtney!) but that’s ok. I still need to explore it with my head-shrinker to make sure I’ve explored every angle of this and all that fun stuff. But first, it’s getting late. I have a ton of tv to catch up on from when I was gone (love the DVR) and some dinner to eat. And I should put the laundry away because I laid it all out over my bed this morning, mainly to make sure it gets put away. I have nowhere else to sleep, so dumping stuff on my bed is an effective way of getting things done. Good thing I only do that with the laundry, it would be really nasty if I did that with dirty dishes!

Have a pleasant evening!

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