Jul 09 2006
I Wanted to Organize the World
Once upon a time, not so long ago, I wanted to be a professional organizer. I watched all the tv shows, studied the techniques, bought organizing books, frequented organizing websites, and learned all I could about starting my own business. I even started getting things going - I still have piles of business cards, I got a website (which I just cancelled), and I started the applications for business licensing. But then I realized I needed to take a step back. First of all, business licenses are expensive in this city, and I just didn’t have that much money. I wanted to do everything properly, so having a business on the sly wasn’t an option for me. Also, I realized exactly how much time and effort would have to be put into marketing, and I wasn’t about to quit my day job, so it would have been difficult to do all that after hours. And of course, since money was tight, I realized that I needed to get another job as it was, something that would provide me a steady and immediate income. Since it was to be a second job, it also had to be something I didn’t really have to think at, so I hit the mall. Those who read my blog know that I am still at that Job#2 at the shoestore.
With all the effort I put into working the 2 jobs, my interest in organizing has faded. I don’t watch organizing programs with the zeal that I once did. And I realized that I like the stability and security of working for someone else. As a single woman, trying to strike out on my own is pretty scary, at least as far as self employment goes. And one more thing was eating at me - I know I don’t want to stay in this town forever, so starting a business when I might be moving in a few years just didn’t seem practical. I just don’t want to put down any more roots here.
The option is still there for the future. I just might decide to make a go of it someday. But now is not that time. Now is the time for working hard, paying off my debts, and trying to figure out how to get out of this town before it eats me alive.
I did the same thing with trying to start a business when there was too much other stuff in the way. I had to just drop it and I plan to just wait until the time is right. Who knows if it’ll ever be the right time, but I know I have the option of re-opening that idea when I’m ready.
P.s. I love being organized and watching shows/reading books on it. Containers and files are fun to me. I know, I’m weird.