Ok, get this. I go ahead and sign up for more hours at the shoe store. Then I go and get another part time job doing dispatch for a security company on the graveyard shift. Well, today Sparkling Butterfly called we chatted for awhile. She told me the whole story, which is confidential of course but includes major drama at the company. Long story short, she still needs me and wants me to come in next Tuesday if possible. I told her what I went thru thinking I would need to keep my head afloat for awhile, and how I feel about the job after everything that had transpired, but I said that once all the drama settles and things get taken care of it still seems like my perfect job. So, if all goes well I’ll be starting there part time after Christmas, at least until I feel more secure with the situation there. That will allow me to keep my other part time jobs and work around those until it kills me or things get more secure employment-wise, whichever comes first. If it works out and I survive the schedule, it could be very good for me financially. If not, I still have 2 other jobs I can juggle.

In any case, this whole week has been draining for me. I’ve only been up less than 12 hours, but I’m tired so I think I’ll wrap things up here so I can turn in and get back on day schedule until I deprive myself of sleep next week.

I made it through my first night doing dispatch at the security place. It wasn’t so bad, the hardest part was actually staying awake, since I had been up all day and ended up being awake for over 24 hours. It got really boring around 7am, but like I said, I made it through. I’m still looking though, so hopefully I can find something. We’ll see how it goes.

Well I did manage to get a few more hours at the store, and there could be some hours available for me at our sister store in the same mall. Also, F hired me at his security company, but since I’m really not keen on doing patrols or anything like that, I’ll be doing dispatch 2 nights a week, starting tonite. I’m soooo gonna love the graveyard shift, but hey, it’s money. At least I’ll have the same schedule every week so I can work around it. I’ll step up the job hunt after the holidays, since no one really hires at this time of year. Also, I do want to wait to see what the situation is where Sparkling Butterfly works. The product they produce and distribute is very much in demand, so I know they can bounce back from it, but once things are investigated further and the severity of the situation is known, then I’ll know for sure if I have a job there or not. And if I do, I’m still torn on whether or not the job would be secure. Anyhoo.

I do have enough money for this month, barely. I get my paycheck from my previous job today, plus I got some money for Christmas. I also have some money coming to me from my old 401K, only about $500 but it will help. And cashing it out won’t make much difference in my taxes since it’s so small an amount. I’m still considering where I can cut back on my monthly bills. Rent, no. Car, no. Insurance, no. Electric – can be more considerate. Cell phone, no, since it’s my only phone. Internet – no fucking way. Cable – well, still working on that one. I don’t watch much tv anymore, but do I really want to cancel cable? I’ve had cable ever since I can remember, from way back when we had the old slider box tethered to the tv by a long cord running across the room. Maybe I can just go down to basic. I don’t know yet. I need to think about it, and catch up on all the programs I have in my DVR.

So that’s the news for now. I need to get a few more hours sleep since I have to work 5:30-10 at the store and 1-9 at the security company. Then I get to do it all over again tomorrow. Joy.

Just when I thought things were turning around, that they were going to go really well with a new fun job and all that jazz, it blew up. I was supposed to start my new job today, and was just on my way out the door when Sparkling Butterfly called me and told me to come in at 9 instead of 8. No big deal, I’ll go out and have a proper breakfast. She called me back about 20 minutes later (I hadn’t yet left the house) and told me there’s some crap going on and to take the day off. Ok, a little nervous now but fine. So I went back to bed and slept until about 3:30. Much needed sleep, really.

Anyway, I called her back when I got up and she sounded really drained. Lots of drama, and as much as she wants to hire me and really needs my help now more than anything, she doesn’t know if there’s enough money in payroll to pay her, never mind a new person. Yup, it’s the big E word. Soooo, I don’t even know if that job is going to happen right now. She will call me back this weekend and let me know what’s going on.

So now I have no income except for the pocket change I make at the store. I will ask for more hours at the store, but 2 things about that – it won’t be much because the budget is tight and I don’t make that much there, and well, ok maybe that was just 1 thing. I called F – he runs a security company and said he can get me a job as a guard. It still won’t be a ton of money, but it will be something. It’s so not up my alley, but again, it’s something.

So now I’m just really scared, financially, but that affects everything. I need to spend some time tomorrow going over some things and see where I can cut back. This just sucks, and I don’t want to lose anything either, ya know?